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yup thats where you can view all my stupid posts of randomness and occasionally something that's worth while, and maybe a few things about my life.


xx

still no internet on my laptop. : (

 </lj-embed>steve prue shoot video by Chris Gooden
Model, yours truely.

and hating it already.
can't wait to see the results from my shoot with mr. prue.

Depart Pitt 6:35pm
Landing JFK 8:24pm

Be back on tuesday
Wish me Luck at Elite.
xxx

Bought my plane ticket to NYC. : ( fucking 184 when it was supposed to be 80. GDI now I'm going to be strapped for money again..this was supposed to be cheap wtf. *shifty eyes* I think someone did this on purpose. *shakes fist* Whatever, its for elite and steve and its so worth it. I'll just bust my ass more and make it up...I hope.

been up since 6:30 this morning. its now 7:17. i'm so tired. Going to be a lonely three days till i'm in nyc. I can't wait, but I'm scared about the flight. I hate flying, but I do it because its quicker. I'll be by myself, hopefully someone will sit next to me atleast so i'll have someone to chat with or atleast not feel so alone.... : ( I get super nervous. Anywho, I guess I'll be heading to bed early tonight, too tired to stay up late again plus I think I work tomorrow. Woo cash.

In hand! Start the victory music! muahaha. Now my mission to NYC is a success..as long as I make it through the airport...ha.

 


( Super Sonic )

This month has 1) snuck up on me. 2) is filling up really fast with great shit.
8-10 NYC steve prue/ Elite.
13-16? Cincinnati/Poss WinterWolfStudios Shoot.
17 Nicholas Critelli / Kelly Lane * I think* designs shoot.
19-21 Philly Photoshoot with Ma Moose for Magazine.

Yea Busy.
I love being busy and so stressed. Means I'm living.
:)

I am supposed to be at the mayhem fest right now. But I was fucked out of tickets, so my brother and his friends are there. And of course I was supposed to meet manzinthere. But sadly that didn't happen. Anyways, I can't believe it's already august. So weird. I can't believe I'm 19 now....eww I'm so old. : (
NYC the 8-10th. Steveeee and Anita. TomTom and many others oooo I can't wait. And then elite. Gonna give this another try. Hopefully they will have the correct things going on this time. So nervous, not as nervous as last time because I know what I'm in for, but now I'm nervous I'll be shot down. *sigh*
August is going to be eventful. Cincinnati, hopefully for WinterWolfStudios. I really hope since I'll be there longer that we will have more time to work with. And then the 19th I'll head to Philly to stay with NikkiMoose and shoot with her styling the shoot the 20th for a magazine. : ) I can't wait.
Sooo for my birthday I got the bestest present ever from mister. I got a new camera which I've been dying for a new one ever since my first one died *RIP* I had it since I was 14, and I sat on it one day last year and that was pretty much it. And some yummy smore's bar chocolate things. haha. Then cash from dad, books from brothers and step mom. Annnd tv from mom and a few pieces of clothing from mom.
August is going to be eventful and that gives me peace of mind, I hate not being busy and I hate being restless.

Dolce & Gabbana
for W magazine
Fall /Winter Campaign




 
( talkaboutittalkaboutit )

sooo tired.
gonna give this birthday thing another try tonight.
xxx

All I was doing was trying to hold onto the things I love, but In the end I made them leave.
I never wanted this, I never wanted to be this way. I'm sorry.

Your alone, happy birthday.

I looked like this.
I wish my hair could look like that..god.




I wanna do a DIY project and try to make something along the lines of those boots...that would be intresting..





and also does that photo not remind you of me and ma moose or what??? she about died when I sent her that photo.

What a trip. Got to hang with mom and watch the devil wears prada, which is one of my ultimate favorite movies. :) So that was really nice, just to have company. Sunday Jamie-Chan came over to ma's house to hang for a few hours and lay in bed with me and just talk like old times. It was really really fun and just nice to be around her again. Then around almost 8, nicky, carli and heaven came over and we all went out to nicky house to celebrate my birthday since I wouldn't be in town for it. We all got fuckin drunk as hell on shots of sailor jerry's and Rum. It was such a good time. I haven't done that with them since heaven's birthday party. So it was a much needed night. carli, seriously first time hanging out with that girl and she is fucking awesome. She's so cute and nice and hillarious drunk ;). I'm really glad we got to finally hangout and have fun. She's totally great to be around and even took my drunk ass home at 3am. hahahaha. Then today me and ma hungout a little bit more before around 3 when I jumped back into the car for a grueling car ride back to Pissburgh. : /
Come home to find my room a complete wreck, and like 90 degree's coverd in black ostrich feathers. Come to find out my beloved machi ball got into my closet and tore down my vintage ostrich feather jacket. Needless to say, there was a MAJOR meltdown. Not what I wanted to come home to..but I do believe that the jacket is ok...hopefully. Just a very stressful day, everyone has been rude to me, ignored me and just basicly doesn't give a shit what happens to me, if I made it home ok, If I made it home ok last night etc. Make sure I didn't puke all over myself in my sleep and die stuff like that. Thing's you'd think someone who care's about you would ask or check on. But whatever Its just the beinging I feel. Birthday is on wednesday and I'm not looking forward to it. I know its just going to be another fucking let down. I can feel it. And if it really turns out that way, shit is going to hit the fan. End of story.
Tomorrow me and dan need to go get our mayhem tickets so we don't get fucked outta that. Can't wait to see manson. Ahhh.


Anyways, wtf is this girl doing modeling for chanel and being the new face for the handbag line??? Blegh I hate her but I love these photos.

xxx

( @#$%^$^& )

hungover I think...or just starved. Or both.
More later.
Sleeeeep.

this lady is my inspriation. she keeps me going, and striving to be somebody.

annnd i want my hair like this.